Happy Birthday Grandad!

Tomorrow, the 19th August, would have been my grandads Birthday. He sadly passed away last year after a major heart attack. It's SO hard knowing that i'll not be able to celebrate his Birthday with him. I'd give anything to see his face one last time and let him know how much I loved him. He was the best grandad anyone could ever wish for; yes we had our differences and he didn't understand my ilness but he always cheered me up when I was feeling down and I knew he cared deeply about me and for that, I could never, ever thank him enough.

It was my nanans Birthday today so I went to see her. My nanan and grandads Birthday are a day apart and they were the same age for a day!

We took my nanan some flowers and whilst we were visiting her, my cousion, aunty, uncle and cousions kids came. I hadn't seen them in a while so it was nice to see them. They brought some flowers for my grandads Birthday wish we went and put in the garden. When my grandad died, my nanan scattered his ashes in the garden and we got a rose bush that we named after him. His favourite place was in the garden so it made sense to scatter his ashes there.

It was SO hard laying the flowers. I think it hit us all that this would be his first Birthday that we wouldn't be able to celebrate together. We always did something on my grandads Birthday so it was so hard knowing that we wouldn't be able to this year.

Whilst my nanan and I were sat in the house, some of her cards kept falling down. It sort of felt as though my grandad was letting us know that he was still here with us, wishing my nanan a happy Birthday and letting us know that he was still looking over us. I never believed in ghosts or spirits before my grandad died but I do now - I know it sounds strange but I truly believe that a few times after my grandad died, I have 'seen' him and my nanan and dad have said the same thing too.

My nanan said she had a nice Birthday but it was obvious that she was upset, as we all were. I really wish I could spend my grandads Birthday with him and let him know how much I cared about him. I'd give anything to see his face one last time.

I decided to dedicate this blog post to my grandad. I miss him SO much but deep down, I think I know that even though he has gone physically unfortunately, he will always be looking down on us and watching out for us. Memories keep loved ones close to our hearts and well, they certainly did in my grandads case!

"If tears could build a staircase
And memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to Heaven
And bring you home again'

Happy Birthday Grandad, I miss you so much and would do anything to see your face one last time!

R.I.P - Gone but never Forgotten!

To all of my blog readers, please take the time today to let your loved ones know how much you care about them. So many things went unsaid when my grandad died and I always promised myself that i'd never let the same thing happen again. Lifes too short and you must let people know how much you love them as you never know whats around the corner!!

Love you grandad! Always in my heart. I was so proud to be able to call you my grandad and I scincerly hope I can make you half as proud of me as you did me! xxx