A Poem That I wrote

This is a poem that I wrote a few weeks ago when I couldn't sleep due to high pain levels. I am trying to decide whether to give it to my grandparents, friends and other family members that don't understand what RSD is - I hope you all like it!!

Why wont you understand?

How can it be that just one day
Could change my life forever
Steadily growing, burning fire
Within me, leaving never

A life so full of friends
A family who'd unite
I hope they'd always be there
To help me win this fight

What started out so positive
Slowly fell apart
School and friends just disappeared
My family broke my heart

My pain is real and constant
Although others aren't so sure
Why should I have to prove to them
This monster has no cure

I sometimes wish I had the power
To let others take my place
To become me for just one day
And see the frustration on their face
Frustration that they cannot share
In normal daily life
Why wind and rain and sunshine
Cut through them like a knife

I wish my life was just like theirs
Without the need for help
Independance regained, my life restored
Without the need for help
Chronic pain is "secret"
A condition hid away
From those who chose not to look
One I choose not to display

My pain is real, forever here
A reminder of the cost
Of fate and events conspiring
Of my independance lost

Just because I don't look ill
Because i've come this far
Remember that it hurts to not
Ask me how things are
A simple word can mean so much
More than you'll ever know
To know you care, you're always there
Though I have still so far to go.